Sunday started like some of the more recent – I lost track of time, hurried to get out the house, and got there as service started. I knew ALL of us needed to be there – wife hasn’t been in weeks and I was wanting her to hear Blake on last time (after all, he married us).
Music was good, sound was good, we were jamming. Then Blake starts on unforgiveness. A good friend of mine, the one going thru a divorce, was sitting over and I figured he might get something out of it. I was looking for something too… since my renewed efforts in serving at the church, I haven’t felt the way I remember. Like I could sense when something was wrong and just PRAY. Right there. With a definite purpose. It’s different, and I wanted that feeling back.
Sermons ends, and my friend goes to the altar and his heart just BREAKS. His two friends are there beside him and I was reminded that this is part of what Christian life is like. I intercede as best as I can – I know he’s hurt below what he shows.  He lets it out, we return to our chairs, and then our other friend takes him up to Blake. And Blake sits him at a table that’s been a symbol of being in communion with God – being so important to Him that we are requested to sit at the head of His table… and there is my friend. The one that I’ve seen through so much in only a short time – and others are going up to him – and that when it happened for me.
Not sure what it was – I wasn’t angry or unforgiving about those involved, but that feeling of needing to pray… it was back.  My heart was fully focused on my spirit, the part of me that knows what to pray for. I’m now just awaiting more “marching orders.”
Well that friend reaccept Christ into his life an laid all his anger and unforgiveness our on altar for God to handle. I’ve never seen him so… open I guess. A man with a lighter load. His friends knowing that God won in that battle.
Oh, and I got to worship with my now 11 year old. A truly amazing Sunday.
Michael,
I just love reading your blogs. You always seem to somehow lift my spirits. I feel exactly the way you did, right now. I used to be able to pray in the spirit and now I feel like there is too much fog. I can’t seem to find the words to pray for people. I am trying so hard to get myself out of the way. I am feeling a little confused for now. Please pray for me. I am not sure for what right now, but I know in my heart that the Lord wants me to seek guidance. So. as a righteous prayer warrior that you are, please pray for me.